De l'art de l'âme

 At the end of the night I had a dream about someone I've been working with for a few years now. We were sitting somewhere and she asked me : "Who do you really do things for?", more or less with these words.  In the dream the vibration in the body that I perceive now made me understand that this is a truth to be worked on and made to evolve.  So I woke up with this idea in my head. And trying to stay in the vibration and not in pure mental thoughts  I told myself that there are two states. One is the scared little girl. The other is the truly adult woman. There is no value judgment, one is not better than the other. Two stages of the same soul. In an ideal world we build ourselves and become adults to let our inner light shine. But most of the time it happens that leftovers fears create a filter and prevent you from truly passing from a childhood state to an adult state. Behind our fears and the repetitions of our lives are that little boy, that little girl. Dissolv...

I paint as I live (or I live as I paint) I look for the vibration, I find it, I lose it The mental gets involved Because we are in this world This is why I sometimes even argue with a painting Patience I always look for more I always find more

What other people do pushes me away from myself What they can think How they do things What they can feel if I do or say this or that Looking out, we get lost This forgetfulness of myself is what throws me off balance Remembering myself, I'm not used to I find it hard to stay there We are both important If I remember myself I love you better If I remember myself the heart opens I'm never alone

  Very often I think to what I can easily consider as the second part of my life because I will be fifty in June.  And very often I find myself realizing that as I go along I'm undoing fears, conditionings, limiting thoughts etc. who created knots in the canvas of my existence.  Erroneous information that causes fear and anger (to name only two well-known emotions), whether through memories, imaginations, and situations that I attract into my daily life.  And as I undo these knots, the light (the light that each one of us carries inside ) finally appears. And I finally find myself becoming an adult. Well, young adult for the moment.  Subtle journey in the true essence of being, where success is not at all measured as we are used to do.  I call it evolution. I have this chance which is not always comfortable. Have a nice week end From my soul to yours that reads Gioia